only one month until me and rachel go to disneyworld!! i'm so excited!!! only 16 days of school left. aaaand in other good news, one tree hill was officially renewed for season 4 today. holllerrr bitches. fucking holler. good day good day. and i've decided i'm not going to let people get to me anymore. i know who my realy friends are and they're ( Read more... )

i really need to get out of westchester more than ever before. the past two weeks have honestly been the most stressful i've ever had, no exaggeration. i barely sleep at night anymore. people are selfish and unsupportive. at least it's good to know who your real friends are when you need them. everyone except for the fake people who are just trying ( Read more... )

ugh. there is soo much going on. it turns out now that there's a big court case about to start up because people are saying that my uncle's death wasn't an accident, rather an error by the hospital staff which killed him when he had almost recovered. this whole thing has just taken such a toll out of me and my family. i'm so stressed and exhausted ( Read more... )

i guess things were going too well for me this weekend. problems were solved, i've had an amazing time the past two nights, i haven't been fighting with my parents, etc. i just found out this morning that my 50 year old uncle died last night from severe alcoholism. he was my mom's brother. i don't think it's really hit her yet because she's been on ( Read more... )

day one of bamboozle was awesome. the best acts were paramore, october fall, and fall out boy. fob was def the highlight of the night. they were also joined on stage by members of panic! at the disco and the academy is. at first i was really annoyed by the persistent crowd surfers kicking people in the face and shit, but after a couple minutes it ( Read more... )

i really don't know what to do. i don't even know where to start.

give me a sign, an indication, just a sense of hope to help me understand what i need to do for you to like me again. i don't know what i did but whatever it is, it's killing me.

i hate people. they're all hypocrites and liars.
but on a brighter note, first day of new job tomorrow. yay.

so today was my last day of work at provisions. starting on thursday i'm officially a waiter at cosi in larchmont. i'm so excited. i'm planning on working there until i move into muhlenberg. i swear this time. i know i get a new job like every other month but i swear this one is legit. i'm sooo excited. plus i get to work with rachel and despite ( Read more... )

i'm so fucking sick of everything.
i'm sick of everyone making me feel like a worthless piece of shit.
everything has gotten out of hand. and i've only been home for less than 72 hours.
fuck everything.
i need a new escape.

countdown until i leave pelham: 4 months and 10 days, a.k.a forever from now