Justice comes into your life and then you’ll know ( Read more... )

HOW CAN MUSIC JUST CHANGE MY ENTIRE OUTLOOK ON LIFE LIKE THAT?

no don't stay home this time. no, don't say no. ;)

When I get back to school, make a list of all the characteristics I want to be, the ones that I want to value, what that means I have to give up - Get a couple goals - and talk to Michelle to help me out. - talk to edger about art and music and creativity free thinking and what it means - possible career paths. - Talk to Linda to keep it up, want ( Read more... )

oh and another thing, the reason when I'm up I get so up, my taste's, the way I think I have the best taste in everything, like music and just all the shit in my room is sooo cool and I'm so great - it just makes me the kind of kid I tear down in my head. The ones who gets all their reasurance from thinking their clothes, style and confidence are ( Read more... )

It sort of sucks. I'm going on a cruise with my sister and my aunt - but i don't know how i feel about it. Holly is annoying the shit out of me and it's been like a fucking day. It's too the point where it's getting uncomfortable - if she hugs me, snuggles up to me one more FUCKING time - I swear to god I'm going to let her know how fucking creep I ( Read more... )

Last night I went to a party with Julia, with some of her columbia friends - it's a hard core art school. They all seems very stylish and cool, but I don't really like them. They all seem kind of pretentious or something.- Or maybe I just don't fit in, but they don't seem very open to others who aren't eclectic. Like they don't trust me, or that I ( Read more... )

I'm starting the lemonade diet. - for my cruise in a like 11 days! shit. I'm hardcore about this. I just finished my fist salt water flush. This is going to suck. anyways ( Read more... )

I'm surprised im up Im surprised Im fucked up. I thought i would have just fallen alseep. soo yess siiirrrr. Out of my head. I can't even hanging out and dancing in the bathroom, because you know that mirror is so big and you can't hide from it.- and I hate what's in it. brb. I keep forgetting michelle is in here. the vodka is over there. I wish I ( Read more... )

ew. So it's 4:38 in the morning and I'm up again. but I'm not drunk. Last night was a lot of fun. A LOT. Michelle said that I'm a lot of fun when I'm drunk, and that I should just be drunk all the time. ehh ya, I get that a lot. so I told mikeparty that I would have fucked him at that first rave. and he wants me bad. And i just don't know. I think ( Read more... )

I was born to be hot. born to be - not necessarily though. That's the problem. I think if I was more attractive I would be some kind of entertainer. If I wasn't so self conscious. Anyways Michelle's behavior is weirding me out. She just seems so ehh. Just shit, and I think that I really would like to transfer back home for next semester. I just ( Read more... )