Soviet Lime: you are like my coolest cousin, and we never get to hang out
AttnKMARTshpprs: WHOOT yes i AM the coolest cousin

okay, came at the right moment

other people go through this, so tell me, what do i do?

tonights painful dilemas involved:

my conflicting impulses regarding being alone, ie the fact that no one wanted to go with me to see mirah and i refused to go alone so i wallowed in regret all night. Its because im usually alone in crowds, alienated in social situations (even if its just in ( Read more... )

sometimes things are okay.

except when theyre really not and i dont do anything about it.

so yeah. um i'm not happy lately.

and so i retreat to the haven of my bedroom and listen to pretty boys cry about problems that i have too and i scrawl all the thoughts i dare not say and read the books on my shelves to go somewhere else, somewhere pretty where other people feel the blunt ends of emotions and i just read about it.

talking to colin ( Read more... )

i wonder if they have mother's day in england?                because i had a very lovely english mother for a few months. who i need to write. sigh. i have so much free time but never accomplish anything meaningful or useful.

last night i got really sad for Mary Pilon. I wonder what she's doing today.

today we went to lunch with the Simontons and ( Read more... )

MISERY thats what this game is called

im a bullshitter i bullshit to myself and therefore to other people but it isnt my fault, i just start talking and the chaos comes out as truth and when i'm done talking i sit and thing 'wait what was just said?' i dont know i never know

i dont want to do this anymore. its not fun.

good bye lay the blame on ( Read more... )

Last night i was upset. very. And i dont want to begin to think about why I've been having unexplained explainable bursts of convulsive tears and gasping sobs have nothing to do but cry until it decides to stop. I'm not a depressed person... stop.

The source of my unhappiness honestly bewilders me.

When I was little I woke up in the middle of the ( Read more... )

i kinda thought it was only my house that i loved to be alone at... but even though this is slightly strange and i'm sitting in tara's room all by myself in her house all by myself, I appreciate the quietness and thought that i could dance around like tom cruise in my underwear and sun glasses if i wanted to ( Read more... )

I had the best deadline!!

!!!

and it was totally because we did absolutely nothing.
tara and I ran around and took pictures of nature and cars and lockers and each other... enjoying being at school with no real work to do. sooo stress free.

(my little sister is really scaring and upsetting me cos she's having an anxiety attack. I feel the need to ( Read more... )

um um very pset? found out kevins band was pulling a wow hall gig and woohoo e're going. but then alex mentioned that kevin's mom told them he had a disease? what? life threatening?

not sweet. and not making my day better.