these days, everything is full of misunderstanding.

its kind of like going round and round and round and round again in circles in your head. its kind of like getting dizzy because your head's a carousel of pictures; the spinning never stops. its kind of like you want it and you dont at the same time ( Read more... )

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so the past couple of weeks some stuff has been going on and i'm happy about it. (knock on wood) lol, i don't want to jynx it. i have this undescribable feeling in my stomach: sometimes it feels good, sometimes it doesnt. i dont know. it's really weird ( Read more... )

i had lots of fun last night at the play. the pay itself was okay, i felt bad at some points for some of the kids cos you could tell they were embarressed doing some stuff. i missed "the kiss" dun dun dunn, lol, but i have to go tonight anyway. i don't mind though, it was THAT much fun. i seriously thought jenna was going to shed a tear cos she ( Read more... )

so nothing new has happened, cept i got into westechester university a couple of weeks ago. its not where i want to go, but whatever. i want to hear from arcadia! i'm getting really stressed about FAFSA. everytime i pull it out i look at it and i'm like damn, i really don't know what i'm doing. then my dad never has time to even look at it ( Read more... )

welcome back old habits.
you've haunted me for too long
& i'm weak.

oh, and jenna benna got into another college! i'm so proud of you.

there are no words to describe today. i feel heavy and light at the same time. my heart feels empty and numb; my mind is full of everything imaginable. i keep thinking over all that has happened today. the subtle instances that got me thinking about so much. i'm glad i got it out, even if it started out with tears, it ended with some laughs. i ( Read more... )

i'm in class right now passing time ( Read more... )

i'm so sick. i feel like complete crap.
i haven't felt this miserable for a long time.

i cried all morning cos my back hurt so bad;
my mom was really freaked out. i don't know what's wrong.