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I don't know why I write in this.
Noone reads it, I don't think.
Oh-fucking-well. Yesterday was
the Ozzfest in which I didn't
attend. I've noticed when I get
a crush I check their myspace
non-stop and i can't stop eating.
Apparently I want to fatten myself
up in attempt to make myself pretty.

I finished summer school and passed with ( Read more... )

so quite a few things i've learned ( Read more... )

life ( Read more... )

i dont really know what to say about last night except im sorry and i dont really feel much different. i see a new therapist today.

im getting drug tested twice a week. i want a fucking drink. but i wont. im really manic and my mom is in such denial about any possibilities about bipolar or manic depressive. i had some ok times today. i went out for a ride with my cousins today for a half hour. i got my tragus pierced and my industrial repierced. ohhh my god i want to drink so ( Read more... )

i woke up today in such an indescribable mood. the only way to describe it is skitzophrenic. it was almost like all i could pick up on around the house was the noises. buzzings. and random shaking and involuntary twitches in my body. it didnt scare me and it still doesnt but it would scare the living shit out of everyone else and thats exactly the ( Read more... )

my mohawk is bleach fucking blonde.
[edit] alright so its not bleach blonde but its pretty light. i banged my head today and got a golf ball sized lump. it sucked ass.
[edit edit] i got a new myspace picture. pay close attention to the necklace. ♥

My Anniversary CD is really scratched and fucked up and wouldnt even work in my old crappy stereo. ( Read more... )

Thank God I dont have self-esteem issues. Granted I hate myself but I hate everyone else SO much more and I just take it out on myself. I think I'm the best fucking thing walking. Im down to about 125 lbs again which means i lost 10 lbs again and oh my god my figure is great. go me im going shopping piss off.