Honestly, I feel like it has been a while since I have been truly happy. I can't remember the last time I was happy, that's how bad it's gotten. I feel so lonely, like all I have is Al, which sometimes doesn't cut it. I look at other people's pictures and wish I was like them, going out with friends and going on trips and having fun. I feel like I' ( Read more... )

The last couple of days have been a whirlwind. I don't really know what's been happening to me, or how I've been feeling. I ran out of anti-anxiety medication and I didn't think it would be a big deal, but it is a lot different. I don't want to be on medication, it sucks and it's not a natural way to live. I want to deal with things and be better. ( Read more... )

-- All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around,
I've been giving out chances but all you do is let me down,
And it's taken me this long but baby I've figured you out.

I just wish you'd listen to me, put me first, and realize that my life revolves around you and sometimes I need it to revolve around me.

Al hurt me so much last night. I cannot believe he would do something so stupid, selfish, disgusting, and disrespectful to me. I was THERE, I saw him grinding with that girl who he slept with last summer as I waited for him outside. I have never felt so hurt by him before as I do now and I don't even know what to do about it ( Read more... )

I'm so bored all of the god damn time. Stuck in this house, alone, because everyone works during the day when I work at night, part-time and have days off other than weekends and work when everyone is off. It sucks. I'm basically doing this so I can see Al yet I barely see him because he still lets his parents run his god damn life, which is sad ( Read more... )

Everytime I write in here is usually only when I'm upset, to vent, which is why I sound so depressed. I never write in here when I've had a good day, or have good news, so really life isn't that bad to be honest. Sometimes I just get so fed up and at least when I write in here it feels good just to get it all out, with noone judging, no one to say ( Read more... )

He doesn't even care.

Honestly, what the fuck have I done with my life. I have completely thrown it down the drain. I hate what my life has become ( Read more... )

Tomorrow will be my last day in Halifax for 4 months, since I am moving to Ontario for the summer ( Read more... )

I feel so lonely. All the time.