What the hell is wrong with me and why can't I just ever be happy. I have it good right now, but my lack of confidence and depression always seems to get in the way. I'm engaged, Pau is well on his way very soon when they give him his visa, I nailed a nearly impossible full time job working as a graphic designer alongside another designer in a ( Read more... )

I pray that it doesn't take me long to find a job. So many issues at home plus the thought of Pau coming soon so we can get married and move out..it's overwhelming. It's also frightening to send out a ton of emails with your portfolio and not get much of a response back.

I am in disbelief. In 6 weeks I can actually say that I will be receiving a Bachelors in Graphic Design. SURREAL.

It's unbelievable to think that in a month not only am I graduating, but I could have given birth to a baby girl or boy. I thought it wasn't going to be painful anymore but as March approaches, I feel nothing but bittersweet towards this month.

Aren't you supposed to get depressed after the holidays? I feel like I'm losing my friends. Just when I was starting to feel good about the new friends and people I've surrounded myself with..it all starts to sort of change. One is practically married and doesn't know how to value her friendships when she's in a relationship. It's always ( Read more... )

The very thought of humans right now and how they go about doing things piss me off at this very moment. There's nothing more that pisses me off that when you put in effort and the same isn't being received. Why do people have to complicate things?

augustus: (4:32:53 AM) well you know ( Read more... )

I could care less about smoking weed. Honestly. The smell bugs the shit out of me and although it the feeling of being high is a pleasant one, I don't care to go out of my way to buy some. Well, things will change. If only I could find the accurate adjectives to describe my chronic pain. All I can say is that it's awful. A day to day constant ( Read more... )

I need someone who can take care of me. Who has a drive to do something with his life. If you know exactly what he's doing every day, that's boring.

heavy heart.