ok, well. now my prof for womens studies is pissed cuz i missed 2 classes. one was cuz rudy and i broke up and i wanted to do it in person. and the second one was cuz i was so hung over i couldnt walk, let alone depressed and pissed off. SO, i love how everything falls back on me.. its so amazing sometimes, i swear to god ( Read more... )

Hey chrissy ( Read more... )

im just so lost

i hate school right now. i just wanna be home. theres no problems at home. everything was fine being 3 hours from NY.. and now that im here everything has gone to hell.

i wanna move away. or go home. but staying here doesnt feel like an option.

So its offically been two days since Rudy and i are no longer an item, and i think i feel worse now than when it initially hit me -- which was yesterday when she wouldnt kiss me. a real kiss that is. i even broke down when we went to get a slice of pizza at a local pizzaria. i couldnt even watch laguna beach without crying because she loves to ( Read more... )

Sitting down and writing is usually my easiest thing to do when i need to get away from stuff. to sit and just write and keep writing until all my tears have fallen and all my anger is released, but lately ive been at a loss for words. ive been unable to speak how i feel to anyone. to even speak at all, for that matter ( Read more... )

ok... i really dont have much to say so i guess i can use this as a venting page.

*clears throat*

every now and then i go through these depression stages where i dont feel like talking. but its not that i dont feel like talking, because everyone else can sense it. i just... i dunno, dont feel. period. and i dont really know what brings them on ( Read more... )

The Psychic said:

-I'll be straight in the future - when i meet the "right" boy. i responded with "that sucks Pat"

-Rudy and I will end soon after i get to college b.c ill will begin to notice qualities about her that i wont like. ie: possessive, controling, maniputative. (i already see some of those, but its nothing i worry about)

-Watch out for ( Read more... )

"...I'm madly in love with you...I think we should be able to see other people ( Read more... )

update ( Read more... )

Is vacation really over already?! Geez.. it was just christmas yesterday... frigin A ( Read more... )