i gotta get out of here.
im bored as hell.
and thi hi hi

this s isnt working.

i dont want to clean my room. and i dont want to go to the show.
(goddamn ssssssssss).

i'd like to continue but,
how can i write a story 
about the kindness of stragers?

i have to punch the key too hard. my finger would get tired o so faszt..

see what i mean. . .

i have the same ( Read more... )

im on my third cup of coffee but i still feel asleep. the rain has stopped making this day so still. the yellow leaves are plastered to the pavement like some kind of ornamental wall paper, and this is so surreal. i cant cry any more and my fever has passed but there are the moments when i realize hes gone forever and i feel like im trapped in this ( Read more... )

last night new yorkers were dancing in the streets. we were celebrating. finally the bush years are coming to an end,  obama will be our president. this morning at the coffee shop i said "it feels like christmas and everyone got what they wanted." i should have known to me christmas is a time of death ( Read more... )

on the way to the city today, so incredibly late, i lost my phone. most likely it disappeared somewhere on the bus, but i didnt realize until reaching  the LES and wanting to call sara to tell her i would be there soon and im sorry. we met at blue stockings. we wondered around the neighborhood abitiously looking for quality vintage boots. we both ( Read more... )

it was summer than. so different from the summer of now. it was a strange return. my reconciliation with new york. i was unaware of any real future plans. it felt odd to be living in ny again. it wasnt part of the plan, yes there was no plan but if there was i would not have included living on long island in the house where  i grew up. staying  ( Read more... )

ive felt dirty for about a month now. stay in as long as the water is hot or until i feel guilty about waste. Ive been  soaking myself in chemicals and doing to much too fast for these humid days ( Read more... )

ive been living at mikee's house for almost a month now. Its alright, a little depressing and i miss my house by all and all not so bad. My apartment was full bugs. now its full of chemicals. it was the definitely one of the top three worst things to happen to me but thank god my dad is an exterminator and i had some place else to go. his apartment ( Read more... )

i recieved 700dollars today. i paid rent and i will still have almost $1000 dollars . i feel really proud of myself. but i also kind of dont understand how it is possible. the cabs, the trip to bmore and dc, my lavish and rediculous spending....yes i recieved a few checks from the government and worked alot the past few days but still, it seems ( Read more... )

i miss my buddies.

you ( Read more... )