drinking cheap champagne. home alone. waiting for people to show up for lennys "surprise" party. maybe no one will come and ill be able to just go to bed. i drank too much last night. i blacked out sometime after playing thumb wrestling with total squares and total strangers at a totally lame party last night. i guess i told mikee that im sorry im ( Read more... )

the group of teenagers walked slow between the street and the tall brick wall of saint josephs. the boys wore their pants hanging low and their colorful hoodies unzipped. it was cold and bright out and i could here their laughter over the music blaring in my ear phones. the way the specals of sun shown down on their shoulders through the trees made ( Read more... )

lou lous does two for one entrees on thursdays, so naturally when sara and i arrived arould 9pm the tiny resturante was over crowded with young couples. we waited in the back near the door to the garden which is closed for the winter. we were seated before we could even finish a glass of wine, yet still we were famished. we ordered more wine and ( Read more... )

so this is the end. my friends... (in my best nico voice possible ( Read more... )

im at my nanny job and maddie is still not asleep. shes freaking out about radio disney not playing her requests i keep telling her just lay in bed and wait, "your going to be exhusted in the morning." its finally stopped raining and i wonder if the temperature has dropped to a normal novemeber level. its been unseasonbly warm here. yes yes the ( Read more... )

today i: drank coffee with lani and rachel. had lunch at caraven of dreams (really really good vegan/raw food in the east village.) accompanied them to shawna the psychic, went thrifting and tried on dresses (bought nothing) tried to visit Ldawg at bluestockings, went to vegan shoe store and babes in toyland (bought nothing but played with cats, ( Read more... )

i hate the bird in the living room, a parakeet or love bird of sorts. it gives the house a sense of filth. my mother taught me to fear feathers, so indirectly i loath birds. carriers of disease ( Read more... )

so my life has gotten really intense the past few days ( Read more... )

its warm and humid the way june in nyc should be. im down in midwood "working" for shimon. i cleaned his kitchen, filed some and worked on some life insurence applications for a doctor from morrocco. i hate it here. trapped in this bland dirty house wishing to be outside, home gardening or far away traveling ( Read more... )

margerette frank was my grandmother before she became peggy deacon. she became peggy in jr high school a name given to her by a friend who loved her before and after she became a feeble womyn unable to create sentences. she died in october, just seven months ago. i have her books of matches. i keep most of them in tattered cardboard boxes that also ( Read more... )