I was spun into a scarf of past hopes and spontaneity. It's so hard to unravel myself with out any help. And you say you care but I can not take myself off of you. You took me and threw me in the back of your closet. But you'll always say I'm your favorite scarf and every winter I wait, and every time you forget about me, piling on other scarves, ( Read more... )

Fuck you Melissa for being a scared little lost girl when it comes to the one thing that really matters to you in your life. Fuck you, gather up your courage and just go with it.
The truth is I have no idea either, not a damn clue about anything important.

'Oh I do believe if you don't like things you leave, for someplace you've never gone before. You are what you percieve, what comes is better than what came before ( Read more... )

is that I dont know nothing. What the hell is going on? Maybe I'm just too hopeful and maybe I just think there's too much good inside of everybody. Swallow your pride and spit out truth.

is blocked by china. I can't believe I'll never see my grandpa again. But I don't think I've ever been so happy to see anybody as I was to see Matt after six weeks. I love China. But I love my home more.

Not sure what I did. But I'm too nice/too stupid/too ignorant and I get taken advantage of and used. Maybe I should just become a bitch to everybody I know to earn some respect in this fucked up independent, proud society.

Old School edit: And I said don't worry about a thing, BECAUSE every little thing is going to be alright : )

Life is good. Life is patient, for the first time in a very long time. I feel like I could sit and watch a flower grow, look up, appreciate life more, and see less than a day has passed since the flower first sprouted. I feel happiness as happenness and joy as the everyday background of life with sadness as a neccessity to keep that background ( Read more... )

So I'm still going to China. And my parents are going out of town the week before its happening. Which means I'm having a pool party, probably June 14th or 15th. From what the directors say China should be safe. There are already students there now anyways. So more school there, a month of nothing but job searching for when I get back, along with ( Read more... )

what I apparently needed to say. And I am a freak. And I sound like I shouldn't be the way people say you should be. And I say fuck them, I'll be whatever I want to be. I'd like to put a truth box on my myspace, I don't know if that's lame or whatnot, but I'm actually more afraid nobody would write anything in it. But why should I care? The things ( Read more... )

say something. And if I could put together the perfect phrase I would. And someone said last weekend, how do i know i'm in love? and his answer was i don't. and I asked someone else how have those two been together so long and been so happy to this day and this reply was I guess they were lucky. And I fell in love with an inanimate object, but he ( Read more... )