So we pretty much agreed that we aren't dating, but still screwing. And still friends.
I don't know how good of an idea that is...but it works for me.
He also told me he might go back to school instead of to the Navy.
But, I'm happy with where things stand between us.

Before we were human we were only displaced souls derived from the form of "the good". We were unaware of anything, but in search of everything. That is why we are here. We are here to educate our soul and prepare it for death. If we do not live our life to the fullest, consuming all possible knowledge we can...when we die our soul will remain ( Read more... )

I wish it didn't have to be this way. But the relationship was fucking with my head. And I don't want to watch myself try to struggle through this. It's for the better. He just doesn't get it though.

So it's all done and over...and in the end I have lost everything.
I suppose that is just life though.
However, I don't know what I did to deserve such a fate.
Damn. I suck.

I still lay away at night and think of fun we had. Damnit. I wish it would just stop. It makes being with Justin a little hard. Especially that he isn't here. But what can I do?

What the Fuck.

I just want to scream or run away.

FUCK!

This is so gay (I hate to use that word, but really, it's such a terrible word in this context that is why it needed to be used)

I am just digging my own grave.

I don't know what is happening. I was so sure it was just for fun. I didn't care at all about him in that way. He's not even interesting. But they longer I go without seeing him or talking to him, the worse it gets. I feel even worse because I'm with Justin now, and in reality I think about Kenny...A lot. Too much. I guess it was just all the ( Read more... )

This was the wost weekend ever ( Read more... )

This next week is going to be awful. I just know it ( Read more... )

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