hey guys,

sorry ive been MIA.i work two jobs & its hard to get a break at times.but i didnt forget about you's.

im so confused. i dont know why.its weird i don't know if theres so many reasons & thats why.my son has changed me in so many ways.i can't even start to name the ways. i mean i was never an out of control person doin crazy shit.but i was defently always out n about.crash here n there.drinking a lot.your everyday 19 yr old.but i wasnt like everyone ( Read more... )

so i did my son's christmas list and it came to $595.00 not including tax...OD?

am i going too crazy? because everything is so cute & i just couldnt resist anything. I tried to cut the list down but i love everything the same amount ;x

oh yea pop is gonna be a blue care bear for halloween he looks so cute so ill post pictures.

please excuse my bi-polar (i dont really have bi-polar but just excuse it ( Read more... )

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my son's father pisses me off so bad.now his father has another baby mother who will call him over n over again because she "needs" something or her daughter (who i love) is crying and she needs a ride or fuckin this or that because i hear her pathetic ass on speaker phone & its so not appealing.now me when i need something for my son or need a ( Read more... )

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so i think im gonna start christmas shopping.

anyone know any good learning toys?

so after a long night of work im home,bored & tierd as shit.The bebe is sleep so i have nothing to do.I remember at one time when i could'nt wait for the weekend to come.Now fridays are like any other night.Its fine with me don't get me wrong but damn don't a girl ever get any excitement other than seein my son smile to patty cake & peek a boo.I ( Read more... )

Ok,this is my journal so why am i hesitating on what i wanna write on here? i wanna putt my feelings here because i barely get to let them out.im so bottled up all the time but i dont know if i care what people think or what it is.My situation is quite bad & i guess i would kinda like feed back but at the same time ive been in this situation for 4 ( Read more... )