there has got to be more to life then this, there is no way that this...what ive done in my life so far, is what i was put on this earth to do.. i relize im young but i feel like ive accomplished nothing..what an awful feeling

im so cold, im going to go lay down and all i want is for some one to hold me.......thats rediculous....

sit down, would you like to talk?
i bet you think you know me.
ask me whats wrong..you always do.
ill tell you a little something.
then you can proceed to
plagiarize my thoughts and feelings,
pretend to care,
give me advice i wont take,
indulge in my insecurities,
then forget about me.
is that about right, or did i miss a step?

Sometimes i get so sad, and all i want is for it to be like it used to be...but then good old jl cures me of that feeling..... hope is gone once more. around and around we go.....you're merry-go-round makes me sick.

-------------close my eyes---------
-----------take deep breath----------
-----------insert the knife--------
-------------fall to knees---------
-----------death by desire-------------

found out a few things last night...or maybe i already knew them ( Read more... )

get drunk ( Read more... )

today/last night someone made me feel like i was the most imporatant thing in the world....ive never felt like that before...i dont know what to do with myself... i can only wait now....thank you..no really, thank you so much.

last night, i was so drunk.
laughing
dancing
kissing
talking

bonged all of em, works so much better for me. Hooray, for toxins

today i went back to school and call me what you will.. i loved it ( Read more... )

last night was fun.we watched requiem for a dream..i was pretty high and it wigged me out a little...i had a good time.

im sorry lisa, for not going to lunch.. i didnt go to bed till like almost four. i woke up at like 1140 and was like damn it ... i really wanted to talk with you today.. i love you.. have a good time with dave today.. call me