so tyler broke up with me the other night ( Read more... )

i feel lost.
i feel unattractive.
i feel sad.
i feel trapped.
i feel like crap.
i feel like this doesnt count.
i feel like i dont count.

i want this to matter.

i love this boy more than anything in the world.


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uhm. . . my birthday is in 9 days.

here is a list of things i want:

-cookies
-mac makeup
-kisses
-hugs
-cards
-green tea
-money
-chocolate
-clothes
-stuff
-junk
-a prostitute
-jared leto
-a range rover
-ipod
-blank cds
-sea monkees
-gak
-play-doh
-lip implants
-a nerf football that whistles

knock yourselves silly.

cheesecake will be the death of me.
its going to make me HUUUUGGGEEE!
but its sooo creamy and delicious.
pssh.
oatmeal cookie time.

i feel so alone anymore, its ridiculous ( Read more... )

so i lost my grandfather this morning, at 7:25.
it puts things into perspective. remember to always tell your loved ones you love them, remember not to take them for granted.

I LOVE YOU ALL!i dont take you for granted ( Read more... )

today i got a call from my mother while i was at work, letting me know my grandfather will be dead in a matter of like 24-48 hrs. the worst
phone call
of
my entire life.im very close to both my grandparents seeing as how they took me in when i was without a home,i lived with them just about the whole time i was in highschool. i love them both very ( Read more... )

FIRST OFF:
merry christmas everyone!! i love you all and hope you had a wonderful holiday!!!

SECOND OFF:

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But the icicles
hung down
like prison bars.

i hate this weather.