Yup, thats right.. little did I know but the good ol LJ account is still alive ( Read more... )

feeling alone... fuck this sucks. I chilled all day with a close friend and then had a few more friends come over, we bbqed and then I tattooed one of them and now everyone is gone and its just Bear and me.... =o ( Read more... )

Is a good day, I had a nice time at my grandparents house yesturday. She said she still loves me, it caught me off guard but made me smile. It made me miss her smile that much more ( Read more... )

Yup, still here... still alive. Just that should be something I'm happy about, and today I am. Tays up in SF seeing her sister off and hanging out with family. I think thats rad and I hope she's having fun ( Read more... )

Its nearly 3am and I'm laying in bed... I just wish I could talk to her, ask questions, receive answers, get a clearer understanding... instead I have to either sit here in patient blindness or walk away ( Read more... )

What should I think? What should I do? ..... be patient and wait I suppose. Its been this long already right? I've survived this long and I'm doing a lot better than in was.

still though, its hard.

seriously, why do I care so much? I feel so out of the loop, I feel so disconnected yet I still hurt.

Someday hopefully the pain will end.

What doesnt kill you makes you stronger.

Good words to think by, it makes you stronger only if you learn from your mistakes. I'm learning to look on the bright side, no matter what my situation.

I'm tired of being sad so today I choose to enjoy my day. =o)

Happiness is only real when shared.

In the morning I'd awake and I couldnt remember
What is love and what is hate? the calculations error
What is love and what is hate?
and why does it matter? Is to love just a waste?
How can it matter?

As the dawn began to break - I had to surrender
The universe will have its way - too powerful to master
What is love and what is hate?

Yea, thats right.... fucking gayness. Today was fucking gay ( Read more... )