the more i see everyone being cute with their boyfriends/girlfriends, the more i really really want to have that. and the more i feel like it's not going to happen until i'm perfect.

today was the first day i looked in the mirror and actually felt okay about myself. i'm starting to see my progress with dieting and everything. maybe it's just those dressing room mirrors (cause i went shopping) and they want you to look amazing so you buy all their clothes. either way, i was satisfied and i finally got my drive and determination ( Read more... )

todaaay consisted of work til 3, sleeping the whole ride home, sleeping for 2 hours when i got home, play practice, and i'm about to go to sleep. yeah i think i'm sick =/ anywayss this is short but i'm not really up to writing alot cuz i wanna go to sleep. kay so.. love u all <3

alright, so i haven't written in a while, but i feel like talking about some stuff that has been on my mind ( Read more... )

i cracked the code & figured out my old password/email address/etc.

i think i'm gonna write in this again too =)

last time i wrote was christmas break

<3

i should really try to keep up with this damn thing. lol. uhh i've been kinda pissed off lately because a certain someone has nothing better to do than to make my life a living hell. other than that, today is a half day and then we have christmas break! so that's pretty awesome. except i don't know what i'm doing over it or whatever. just the time ( Read more... )

umm. it's been so long since i've updating. the sad part is, nothing has changed. except for the fact that i've been constantly writing college essays and filling out applications. i really wanna go to fairleigh dickinson. <3 my second choice is college of new jersey. anyways.. uh. yeah. lemme know you're alive. peace out <3

well it's been a while. summer was pretty good. seaside was amazing. and now it's that time of year. school. usually that word makes me shudder, but this year is good so far. i have awesome classes, i have more of a social life than i've ever had, and it's my senior year. i also have the greatest friends in the history of the universe. it's weird ( Read more... )

it always seems that at times when you need and want the most support, there's no one there. but then when there are people there, you don't want that support or sympathy. it's always that way for me, and it's really weird. it's one of those times. and there's a few people that i feel i can confide in, but i don't want to. i just don't want to talk ( Read more... )