it's been SO long since ive updated. wow. im definitely going to start updating again.

it's been a while since one person has bothered me so much. i think when someone says something as simple as "i'll call you in blah blah minutes" they should do it. like why bother setting a time if you have no intentions of doing that? it would be better to say "i'll call you sometime later" and then i wont expect you to call at any certain time, ( Read more... )

bad nights take forever and the good nights never seem to last ( Read more... )

i give guys a hard time when i like them, not totally sure why, i guess i just want to make sure they are worth it, if they really want me, they will put up with it and keep trying... if not, i didnt need them anyway.

YUPP.

when your throat starts to clench and your heart gets so warm that the heat runs through your whole body. when you start to feel butterflies that cause instant cryingggg... that wont stop... its like the worst pain you could ever feel... it's something ive felt too many times... definetly a heartbreak ( Read more... )

is it okay to hate my dad? i get so frustrated with him. i dont really remember ever having him around... everyone tells me that he was real great before he got on drugs but i dont remember that, i feel really bad for not remembering. i guess i am just a nice person because i still feel bad for him and anytime he calls, which is only when he needs ( Read more... )

it's been a while since i've wrote in here. yikes. i'm still alive, sometimes i wonder if thats a good thing, i guess it is. i've been going through a lot lately and i've been pretty upset. what's new, right? a whole new heartbreak, makes me almost want to just give up on dating & guys, whatever.

last night was so difficult. so much has been going on lately, so i really didn't need the extra drama, but what can i do? NOTHING. my mom & dad like to put me in the middle of their fights and i hate it. so i got to listen to my mom complain and bitch about my dad, and i understand and agree with her mostly and then i listen to my dad and i get so ( Read more... )

i haven't updated this thing in forever. alot has been going on so i wont even try to explain any of it ( Read more... )

You wanna know what the truth is? I still love you and I probably will ( Read more... )