this fucking sucks.

Freedom does not feel near as good as I would have imagined. I guess there is no use in spreading one's wings if one has no clue how to fly. I know this is what needs to happen, but fuck, it is not what I wanted. I hope that through this time apart I will grow, and discover my true goals, desires, and needs. I feel that I need to take this time ( Read more... )

i never meant to break your heart.
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i promise.
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and god knows i never ever imagined i would break my own.
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im sorry. i am so sorry.

one more for good measure...

I can't believe your thinking ( Read more... )

Look on down from the bridge ( Read more... )

but the years have passed quickly... last night was a blast. good times. good people. old friends. everything and nothing changes. love.

despite the fact that i quit smoking (aside from the occasional drunk indulgence) for the second time over a year ago, all i can think about is a cigarette... a virginia slim menthol ultra light to be exact. unfortunately and fortunately i know no one that i could call and beg for just one... just one chemically charged, menthol flavored, nicotine ( Read more... )

seems i remember this journal a lot less often than i used to. i miss it, however i think i prefer the paper kind... at least at the moment. a lot to say and nothing at all. lately i have been at a loss for words, and yet instead of keeping my mouth shut, i ramble incoherently and foolishly. i would rather not continue that compulsive cycle at ( Read more... )

1 barnes and noble giftcard ( Read more... )

i wish i could turn back time.
i wish i could just close my eyes and disappear.
i wish i could mend broken hearts.
i wish i could call him and say lets go to disneyland.