God I've been freaking out all day... what the fuck is wrong with me? What is my problem? Last night was really disturbing and I just wish my emotions would calm down. I didn't do anything worse than usual but it was just... I don't know. I want to go home. I want to rewind my life about 5 years. I'm fucking sick of being worthless. I want ( Read more... )

I don't know what is with me right now. I get emotional over stupid crap... or at least I have today. I've cried like 5 times. What the hell? Blah... I don't know. I actually had a good day. I think my brain is just screwed up ( Read more... )

So I'm posting again. Why? Because I'm bored out of my mind. I'm home alone and I don't know this side of town as well. Not like I'd go out alone anyway. I don't have money either. Steph wants me to go out again tonight. I don't really want to. Justin gets kind of freaked when I go anyway. I guess I don't really blame him. He has more ( Read more... )

I'm really tired but I can't sleep. I just got home and I've been feeling sick all night. I hate that... bleh. Yeah. I'm updating because I'm bored and Justin complained that I haven't in awhile. Usually its the other way around but I don't know... I just haven't felt the need to update. Maybe its because I'm at my dads and its weirder here ( Read more... )

Okay yeah.... My internet was cancelled and I was kicked out again a few days after that... So I'm sorry for not posting or commenting like I usually do to everyone that comments on mine. I REALLY appreciate the people that do comment.... so thanks ( Read more... )

Yay for disgusting popcicles!! ...or not. You guys know you want to like my very digusting popcicle. ::shrugs:: I'm bored. Comment and tell me something I don't know and make it interesting... Doubt I'll get many comments in this journal though... lol.

Yeah... yesterday went well for the most part. Justin came over we went to family video. Rented Bowling For Columbine. We watched a movie that Donkey let me borrow... Elephant. I'd already seen it but I didn't know as much about the Columbine shootings the first time I saw it. I didn't like the ending. I think it was pretty crappy but I liked ( Read more... )

Well I'm up... and I'd rather not be... I couldn't sleep last night for anything. I can't tell you how many times I heard the cd I was listening to because it was on repeat. It took forever. But yeah... now I'm awake and I don't want to be ( Read more... )

Yes... I can't sleep... so what do I do? I update this damn thing like I always do because I have no life. I tried going to bed, you know cause sleep passes time, but it didn't work. I just layed there for an hour and decided to get up again. So I'll probably be on here complaining more... 'cause thats what I do, right? Mmmhmm ( Read more... )

Okay so I got really bored and took pixonwheels 's advice and used www.dreammoods.com to "interpret" my dream from the entry below this one and this is what I came up with... lol not that I believe it really but it was interesting...

-To dream that you are carrying a knife, signifies anger, aggression and/or separation. There may be something in your life ( Read more... )