[Soundbyte: OlliS back again, this time with The River of Chill.The Vangelis track from Bladerunner caught me by surprise, followed by BT. Calming and soothing sounds, the stuff you close your eyes to and drift away on an endorphin cloud.]Had my workout this morning which was good, and I woke up 15mins before the alarm went off, which was a first. ( Read more... )

Feeling down. Not that it matters right? Deal with it, go to sleep, move on. Sometimes, or right now, I think I think too much about tomorrow when it's gonna be ok. And I convince myself it's ok to feel like that right now, because tomorrow will come and it'll be ok, I will be ok ( Read more... )

Anyone whose goal is 'something higher' must expect some day to suffer vertigo. What is vertigo? Fear of falling? Then why do we feel it even when the observation tower comes equipped with a sturdy handrail? No, vertigo is something other than the fear of falling. It is the voice of the emptiness below us which tempts and lures us, it is the desire ( Read more... )

You know, in hindsight, I should've known. Against 1600 people. I know I'm not quite there yet, but I think I'm on the right track because I feel it: Like one of those toy track cars that you place into a groove and let it run, I can feel the groove I'm in and it feels right. The people around me have reaffirmed it. But I'm not quite there yet-- ( Read more... )

Well I didn't get it. Not sure how to react either. Of course I'm gutted, but I've also tried to downplay it, so in a way, I'm kinda detached like how I handle every other hurt and disappointment in my life. Sigh. It's not the end.

I ended up jogging under the slate gray sky this morning. The lightest drops, cool breeze in the face. Jogged for half an hour, after which a bit of interval training. I am adjusting the distance based on an article I read. Apparently 65m is just nice for a few seconds of sprinting. This is important because that few seconds of sudden burst ( Read more... )

Waking up at 6 in the morning to jog, only to hear the rain on the road, is the suck. I'm hitting the gym.

I never considered myself a big Ian M. Banks though I enjoy his books, but boy am I looking forward to Matter and this interview isn't helping ( Read more... )

Work is becoming frustrating with an MD who came from a sales background, thinks he's an ECD, and behaves like a flaky client. Things came to a head last Friday over a pitch we're working on, and if not for a spider crawling across my body, we'd have blown up and gotten messy ( Read more... )

Sigh this is really really bad. Let's hope the two melatonin will kick in and I'll knock out. Don't know if I can make it for interval training in 5hrs' time.