so surgery was last tuesday the 9th... got out of hospital on the friday ( Read more... )

so monday will be 2 years since nate died.
havent thought alot about it, me writting this now is probably the most ive let myself think about it.
i have this huge cloud of dred hanging over my head knowing this day is fast aproaching.
ive taken monday tues and wed off work and im going away.
he'd be 3 1/2 now...

This happens to me every year around this time, it must be something to do with my birthday... i get this overwhelming feeling of change and i can feel it now, its in the pitt of my stomach and it feels good ( Read more... )

I'm such an idiot ( Read more... )

Im very uncomfortable at the moment.. i feel like ive put on so much weight since nate died due to stress and depression and i feel really disgusted and unhappy in my skin ( Read more... )

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its 2:05am, i just had a fun and random night with people i love love LOVE and now im laying in bed with an icepack on my hip, sleep timer set on my tv, full of ice coffee and watching my little pony <333
so content right now!

My cat got outside this morning (hes an indoor cat and has never been outside) and we havent seen him since.
hes still a kitten and not social with other people or animals and was shit scared and heard crying... we dont think we're going to get him back.

im having x-rays on my hip in the morning.. fun times.

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My names gem and i have a crush on someone. I know nothing will come of it ( Read more... )