"this journey for me will be long and hard..." Wherever you go, you're still you! The beautiful Nami of the past has gone nowhere!
Also, this is an insightful observation that I agree with:
"everyone in the world can tell you everything you want to hear... they can fluff your ego for minutes at a time... but when you're in bed alone... so disgusted with yourself that you literally feel like you're going to throw up... when that happens... you're only savior is yourself."
aw, mr. troxell... you are too kind. [blush] thank you... you're quite good looking yourself... and with your awesome bedhead... [dies] hot.
as for the observation... it's something i think i've always known... but i never voiced... and because i didn't voice it... didn't tell myself that that it was the truth... i just kept relying on outside criticisms and/or compliments... it sucked.
i think i've just been allowing myself to feel lousy too much... [the rainy, cold weather isn't helping...or the long workdays and school nights...]
...but i won't forget to celebrate myself... i think i'll do that this weekend... i'm going to have a "me" party...
...i just have no idea what it will entail... i'm not about to call my friends up or send out a mass e-mail that says: "come to my party...it's being held for me...let's celebrate nami!"
that just seems a little too self-centered... perhaps some me-time is in order... pamper myself...and do some christmas shopping. that sounds like a plan.
well, whatever the case [i should stop rambling] you are sexy and hip and you need to come back to nyc to have lunch with me... we need to be bimbos together!
"...but i won't forget to celebrate myself... i think i'll do that this weekend... i'm going to have a "me" party...
"come to my party...it's being held for me...let's celebrate nami!"
that just seems a little too self-centered..."
Girlfriend... SEND ME THAT INVITATION TO CELEBRATE NAMI!!!!!!!!!!!
We'll party over coffee and s'mores!!!!!!!
Wait... Let me check the carbo amount...
*throw carbo guidebook away*
What the hell... We'll do WHATEVER you want baby... :)
And stop making being self-centered totally dirrrrty...
*bitch slap*
Ain't nothing wrong with being self-centered as long as you make space for other people... I prefer to call it "Putting myself on top of MY list" *wink*
Ain't nothing wrong with being self-centered as long as you make space for other people... I prefer to call it "Putting myself on top of MY list" *wink*
I like that. Putting my self on top of my list. Hmmmm.
hey, if being self-centred wasn't dirty then what's the fun in being self-centred. *winks*
I completely understand this. Though I've never been a waif like weight I struggle with how I see myself everyday. I got to a point in my life where I realized I was overweight and I just wouldn't settle for that anymore. I began excercising and eating less, etc and I lost so far around 60 pounds. Though still not in shape I am much smaller than I was, and last night when I went out I was asked a question that I had been asked before at my heaviest that I didn't think could happen now. At the checkout line in Target I was asked "when are you due?" and I wanted to break down and cry right there. I refused to speak to the cashier much after that question, it hurt. I went home and looked in the mirror first thing. I tried to rationalize with myself, how could this happen, everyones been saying you look so much better. Sure my stomach isn't totally flat but it also wasnt a pregnant belly by any means. But her stupid comment put so much doubt in my mind. Which it shouldnt be able to ya know? I should be confident enough to say ok, the 40
( ... )
the first thing dan ever told me about you was: "she is the coolest girl...ever."
now, dan doesn't say things like that on a regular basis... he does not dish out cool points to people just like that...
and when i saw your picture i thought you were beautiful... reeeeeeeeeeeally beautiful.
beauty and cool points...rare and awesome.
i let what people say to me get to me too much... i can totally relate... but rest assured, the general populace is ignorant... so, you shouldn't listen to them. easier said than done, i know... i should listen to my own advice some time...
but, try to think positive... i'll be searching for the comfort of being myself... and you can too...
and, YES, we can hang out and be ninjas... awesome ninjas... tampon ninjas of love. booyah.
in short, you are awesomeness and there's no one else like you. <3 no more crying... let's fight. :]
I wish I'd seen this before lunch. I will try hard not to say meaningless things.
The fact is, you are beautiful. I have always said so. At 102 or 115 I can't tell a difference. But here is the thing. The thing that's important. You are a beautiful person. On the inside. Your beauty radiates out from there. Yeah, great, you have wonderful skin and I could probably snap you like a twig and you have the fashion sense of a designer. But fuck that. You are a good friend, a good girlfriend, a good daughter, a good person. That's the thing. So if you want to stop crying and be happy, I suggest you think about that. And remember that I love you and next time you are feeling this way and you DON'T tell me when you see me, I actually will snap you like a twig :)
Well I'm glad I can make you feel better. That's a really nice compliment and it helps bring me up when I'm feelin' down (aka now). Anytime you need that, you know where I am. And I'm grateful to have you as a friend too.
And dude. I would just have to sit on you with my Big Fat Ass of Death and you would snap :)
I think you are getting a good grip on what you have to do. You seem like your head is in the right place.
Yes, in the end it doesn't matter what other people tell you, or how much ego stroking they give (even though it works for a little while). Yes, you need to kick your own ass to feel more confident in yourself.
And I am confident that you will find that confidence.
So go out there, and fucking smile. Damnit. You are beautiful.
yeah, i figured it's about time i started thinking logically... this whole insanity thing...i'm so over it. now, i just have to keep my head on straight.
ima kick my own ass everyday...
thanks for the support!
...and now...i must smile... smile until my face hurts...
as for you...you are beautiful... and i love you bunches... thanks again. <3
um...and...yeah...we need to hang out... i'm starting to forget what you look like!!! you haven't cut your hair, have you?!
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Wherever you go, you're still you! The beautiful Nami of the past has gone nowhere!
Also, this is an insightful observation that I agree with:
"everyone in the world can tell you everything you want to hear...
they can fluff your ego for minutes at a time...
but when you're in bed alone...
so disgusted with yourself that you literally feel like you're going to throw up...
when that happens...
you're only savior is yourself."
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you are too kind.
[blush]
thank you...
you're quite good looking yourself...
and with your awesome bedhead...
[dies]
hot.
as for the observation...
it's something i think i've always known...
but i never voiced...
and because i didn't voice it...
didn't tell myself that that it was the truth...
i just kept relying on outside criticisms and/or compliments...
it sucked.
i'm glad you agree. ^_^
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Woman: OH SHIT!!!!!!!! That's the biggest zit i've ever seen in my life!!!!!
Man: Hey there handsome ( ... )
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you're the best.
i think i've just been allowing myself to feel lousy too much...
[the rainy, cold weather isn't helping...or the long workdays and school nights...]
...but i won't forget to celebrate myself...
i think i'll do that this weekend...
i'm going to have a "me" party...
...i just have no idea what it will entail...
i'm not about to call my friends up or send out a mass e-mail that says:
"come to my party...it's being held for me...let's celebrate nami!"
that just seems a little too self-centered...
perhaps some me-time is in order...
pamper myself...and do some christmas shopping.
that sounds like a plan.
well, whatever the case [i should stop rambling] you are sexy and hip and you need to come back to nyc to have lunch with me...
we need to be bimbos together!
[fashionable hug] <3
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i think i'll do that this weekend...
i'm going to have a "me" party...
"come to my party...it's being held for me...let's celebrate nami!"
that just seems a little too self-centered..."
Girlfriend... SEND ME THAT INVITATION TO CELEBRATE NAMI!!!!!!!!!!!
We'll party over coffee and s'mores!!!!!!!
Wait... Let me check the carbo amount...
*throw carbo guidebook away*
What the hell... We'll do WHATEVER you want baby... :)
And stop making being self-centered totally dirrrrty...
*bitch slap*
Ain't nothing wrong with being self-centered as long as you make space for other people... I prefer to call it "Putting myself on top of MY list" *wink*
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I like that. Putting my self on top of my list. Hmmmm.
hey, if being self-centred wasn't dirty then what's the fun in being self-centred. *winks*
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"she is the coolest girl...ever."
now, dan doesn't say things like that on a regular basis...
he does not dish out cool points to people just like that...
and when i saw your picture i thought you were beautiful...
reeeeeeeeeeeally beautiful.
beauty and cool points...rare and awesome.
i let what people say to me get to me too much...
i can totally relate...
but rest assured, the general populace is ignorant...
so, you shouldn't listen to them.
easier said than done, i know...
i should listen to my own advice some time...
but, try to think positive...
i'll be searching for the comfort of being myself...
and you can too...
and, YES, we can hang out and be ninjas...
awesome ninjas...
tampon ninjas of love.
booyah.
in short, you are awesomeness and there's no one else like you. <3
no more crying...
let's fight. :]
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*cracks up laughing*
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The fact is, you are beautiful. I have always said so. At 102 or 115 I can't tell a difference. But here is the thing. The thing that's important. You are a beautiful person. On the inside. Your beauty radiates out from there. Yeah, great, you have wonderful skin and I could probably snap you like a twig and you have the fashion sense of a designer. But fuck that. You are a good friend, a good girlfriend, a good daughter, a good person. That's the thing. So if you want to stop crying and be happy, I suggest you think about that. And remember that I love you and next time you are feeling this way and you DON'T tell me when you see me, I actually will snap you like a twig :)
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And dude. I would just have to sit on you with my Big Fat Ass of Death and you would snap :)
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Yes, in the end it doesn't matter what other people tell you, or how much ego stroking they give (even though it works for a little while).
Yes, you need to kick your own ass to feel more confident in yourself.
And I am confident that you will find that confidence.
So go out there, and fucking smile. Damnit. You are beautiful.
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this whole insanity thing...i'm so over it.
now, i just have to keep my head on straight.
ima kick my own ass everyday...
thanks for the support!
...and now...i must smile...
smile until my face hurts...
as for you...you are beautiful...
and i love you bunches...
thanks again. <3
um...and...yeah...we need to hang out...
i'm starting to forget what you look like!!!
you haven't cut your hair, have you?!
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It's only a matter of time before I will be at the point where I will need your helping in shaping my mop intoa fashionable bowl-cut.
we are destined to hang out...it is inevitable.
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