it feels as though the clouding storms of ambivalence are finally parting to reveal the shadow of a perfectly carved plan; intricate, yet, precise to the very detail.

revelation.

i will take care of you .. your word spoke to me. and for every doubt, for every uncertainty, for every fear, for every worry, you have shown that you have something ( Read more... )

So.. I'm leaving in three weeks to a foreign land with no friends or family, and I just found out I've no place to live.

Just perfect.

when you're hurt, i hurt. when you're down, i'm right there with you. i may not understand your way of thought or experience the intensity of what you're going through but i feel your pain just as if it were mine. i would love if you needed me more, it would mean so much to me to be able to be there for you during these times but yet i know that ( Read more... )

i never thought you'd lie to me ( Read more... )

topshop's on sale! but then again i really shouldn't ought to be spending anymore cash considering the amount of shopping i've done this week. my sole purpose for shopping this time around was to get some 'thicker' clothing for london- jackets, some good walking shoes- but none of the 600 bucks i've spent went into any of that. do i really have to ( Read more... )

i've decided to use this journal as a canvas on which i will attempt to paint all the nitty-gritties of my daily life that under normal circumstances i would deem too insignificant to be recorded. i want to go back writing like i used to.. when eloquence and substance mattered not and my journal was simply my outlet to express and reflect on the ( Read more... )

my best friend left. the only person whom i know, or knew would always, always be there for me. the one person who really cared, unconditionally.

you always asked me if i was hungry, you always offered to bring me something. you were there all those times i needed a shoulder. and you would let me cry while you listened and told me it was okay. ( Read more... )

At times, love means having to make sacrifices. It isn't simply giving up something that doesn't mean anything to you but letting go of something significant because of another more important reason ( Read more... )

I got my second unconditional offer, this time from the University of Nottingham. The first one came from York a week ago. I'm happy. If only money wasn't an issue.

I wonder sometimes if having big dreams of success and a readily mapped out route for the future really essential in order to constitute someone of purpose and direction. I question my goals, sometimes. Or if I have any at all. I want to be successful but at the same time, it doesn't really bother me if I am not the most. Or so I say now. I want a ( Read more... )