i feel like such a ghost lately. like i cant reach out or speak for myself or move without being moved. or more like two completely different people fighting each other tooth and nail for every conscious thought i approve. is anyone still out there? its like theres nothing left to get used to.

anxiety_attacks.

i have never been so in love with any individual in my entire life. i would do absolutely anything for you and i never want to lie to you or hurt you ever again. i feel what you feel. but i cant do this separate city sleeping arrangement much longer.

EVERYTHING BLEW UP IN MY FUCKING FACE ONCE AGAIN, who woulda thought.
moving back to cleburne i guess? need another job. my car died. stephen keeps "breaking up with me".

kidnap me?

i finally moved out
have two jobs AGAIN
one of which is at a head shop that carries roors
ive made a lot of really cool friends lately
the dress im wearing is awesome
me and stephen can sleep in the same bed now
i just wish he knew i loved him

i miss my family.

happier than ive ever been.
lucky, lucky stars.

(words cant describe.)
i do miss some of my old friends though. it seems like everything got washed away with the summer storms. i didnt really try to save any of it.

workin hard, sleepin harder
and lots of this:

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so im happy. and. i have the best boyfriend in the world.


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dont put ANYONE before yourself. maybe family, but above all do what will make ME happy. no more prioritizing for friends, dudes, anybody. im so sick of doing everything i can for the people that i love and then getting walked all the fuck over for no fucking reason. did i do something wrong? why is it that absolutely every single one of my friends ( Read more... )

i wish you werent so far away