MY HEART IS A COMPASS; IT POINTS TO YOU

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Every night I come home from work, park either behind Donovan or in the street--depending on how early he must leave the next morning--and I march up to the door, sometimes carrying groceries, sometimes not. I unlock the door with my key, a tiny metal thing which means I'm invited, always, and most nights I am greeted by he rhythmical stomping of

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[_discordia_]

totally stealing that heading, so perfect

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=)
I made it up while I was driving home from work.

[c0lumbin3]

I just posted a long entry about being unsatisfied by the simplicities of love and most relationships where you just posted the exact opposite, lol. Funny timing. I'm very glad to see you're happy though.

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haha nice. Don't get me wrong--sometimes I completely hate the mediocrity. In fact a lot of the time I hate it, but only when I get caught up thinking it's all "boring," focusing on what's not important. Sometimes it really kills us because we just don't have the time (or money) for anything other than the mundane stuff. It stresses us both out. But I try to appreciate it for what it is--find the little things I like about it--and over all I'm happy and I love him and if it comes with boring simplicity at this point in time, I love that too and all its tiny details.

And thanks! I'm glad to be happy, heh.

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PS I just read your entry and I know you don't want comments but I just have to say it was kind of eerie to me because I have seriously the EXACT thoughts and frustrations, and not just with relationships but with everything. I'm appalled by the "real" world so much it seems unfair and I always wish things were a fairytale.

The only way I have found to beat the system is to just trytrytry to be satisfied with the little wonders in life, and sometimes it works (like last night, when I wrote that entry), in fact it's been working a lot for me lately, but other times I can't shake the burning desire for something more--something that isn't even "real" in this world. I'm happy over all but damn it if I don't wish nearly every day I lived in a story book. Sometimes I'm even scared that if I spend all my time trying to just be happy with the way things are, I may regret later that I didn't seek out something more. I hope you find a way to realize it and make it happen.

[c0lumbin3]

I'm so glad someone else understands! That's why I didn't want comments.. I didn't wanna hear everyones robotically programmed automatic opinion about why that could never be. I have had many times where the simplicity makes me happy..but over time I've noticed that becomes less and less frequent. I always want more..and it always gets worse when I start reading books. So my question to myself is... will I ever be satisfied with him--or anyone until I can somehow find it? I don't think I will....

[ellierachael]

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