i can't shake the feeling that something is wrong. just off somehow. i have this bad feeling within me and i can't fix it or figure it out ( Read more... )

my dreams last night have tainted my day. we watched sunshine last night which made for strange dreams about weird, dangerous sun people who lived on the surface of the sun and were very strict and unpleasant. i woke up and couldnt sleep for a long time and seth was too deeply asleep to be any comfort. this morning i dreamt that one of the most ( Read more... )

i also tried to lift something heavy last week and damaged my chest muscles again. im in a fair amount of pain most of the time now.

someone keeps sending me text messages and i can't read or respond to them.

this semester is killing me. i am officially done a week from tomorrow but until then i cant think about anything other than work. i wish i had the luxury of having a break down ( Read more... )

i miss making moooovies ( Read more... )

i feel uneasy. strange dreams from a restless night have made me feel off all day ( Read more... )

i am leaving in two and half weeks. ive been packing little by little for a month, and now my walls are almost completely bare ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel bad for the people in my life. more specifically, the ones on the receiving end of the consequences of my fears and my depression. its funny. the things i care about the most, that mean the most to me are the hardest for me to deal with. instead of taking things on right away i put them off because im terrified. because until its ( Read more... )

rory and i wont be leaving for boston this year ( Read more... )

yatzeearafat: if ever there was a good time for my phone to go down it would be after "Where did you find a small door? What are you doing right now ( Read more... )