( woooow. )

life sucks.

why?

im in a really fucking bad mood. i dunno why. i'm really tired and i feel lonely. i can't pinpoint my problem though. i am constantly in this angry mood and i feel like i just wanna punch someone if they say the wrong thing to me ( Read more... )

a lot of things really just fucking suck right now. i feel numb. i feel numb to all emotion and its kinda freaking me out. it seems like all i want to do now is smoke or pop pills and everything will be okay. this isn't me. where am i? who am i? what and who am i supposed to be ( Read more... )

( oh the survey's you do at 3am )

two updates in less than 24 hours ( Read more... )

i realized this journal is not written by me. it is written by someone who i was TRYING to be, to try to prove to myself that something was real when it really wasn't.

i don't really know who i am anymore. i need to find myself. i need to regain control of my life and discover the person who i am meant to be. i need to make myself happy ( Read more... )

soo. it's june 27- and in 2 months i'll be back in school. to be a senior. blah- how weird ( Read more... )

well, mom knows about my tongue.. and surprisingly, i'm not grounded, and i get to keep it! who woulda thought...

nothing new is going on. working a lot. summer is alright. i love jeff. and right now, i want a shower.

i got my tongue pierced!... lets just hope mom and dad won't see it... =\