death. its quite an interesting subject, really. have you ever thought about it? tonight when i picked my aunt and cousins, i realized how much my cousin mackenzie resembles my uncle. i can still remember the night i found out about his death. i was in my room pouting because my parents wouldnt let me order a movie off pay-per-view. my dad got a ( Read more... )

hmm. got my hair done again on thursday-

( darker, blonder, bangs )

what a day. ah so i am back to working 4-close shifts instead of 6-close shifts now that swimming is over. im really exhausted. it was a beautiful day today and i sat in class and stared out the window most of the time day dreaming. i wanted to just get out of the building and be outside with my friends and the love of my life. but when you are ( Read more... )

this weekend was amazing. friday night i swam at sectionals and finally broke my best time in the 100 free. jeff came in time to see my 100 back race which basically sucked but thats ok. after the meet him & i went to ihop and i like ate the world. it was delicious. then i went home and got in bed and talked to jeff on the phone for a while. ( Read more... )

lately, i have just been kind of... blah. i couldn't really tell you why. i am usually the type of person who is sensitive and caring, and when you are upset i will hug you and listen to you and tell you everything will be ok. but that hasn't been the case lately. i feel like i become frusterated really easily and i am always tired. i feel negative ( Read more... )

bleh im really really REALLY tired. and i dont feel good. remind me not to eat onions because i dont like them and they make me feel like shit ( Read more... )

tapering for swimming rocks. i have so much more energy during the day now its unreal. i have been sleeping in til like 715 lately, and showering and getting ready by 730. its pretty impressive too. um, school sucks, and i am way behind on my homework. but thats ok i guess. nothing else too exciting ( Read more... )

super bored. ive done a lot of growing up the past few days. im kinda rethinking a lot of things and im realizing a lot. first of all, i hate the school that i go to and i really cant wait to graduate. i thoroughly dislike quite a few of the people that go to my school and a lot of them are shady bitches- especially ones that are supposed to be ( Read more... )

blah so i'm sick again. i was really hoping that maybe this was the year that i could escape without getting a cold. but no- the sore throat started yesterday and by the end of last night i couldnt breathe out of my nose. and this morning ive used like a whole box of tissues. and now its to the point where i cant taste my food. i hate when that ( Read more... )

blah im bored. school sucks and swimming is getting better cause were tapering and sets are getting easier and shorter and were getting out of the pool earlier. im not working a lot... umm, just things arent a lot of fun right now. we lost our first dual meet last friday in like 12 years or something crazy. im really tired al the time and i just ( Read more... )