What is wrong with me? Why does no one want me? Where did my self esteem go? What can I do to make myself better? Will I ever be happy again ( Read more... )

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I hate how I can never say anything to defend my boyfriend...except that I know he loves me & I trust him. & I hate how some people can't see how he's changed since fucking high school (GO figure?).

I also hate how about 1/2 the things I wrote in the entry below have been proven to be bullshit to me in the past 2 days.

the most amazing people come in to your life during the most crucial times, never underesmiate your ability to overcome obstacles, true friendship is rare and something you need to hold on to tight, reality tv is the greatest invention ever, everything will always turn out okay - for the most part, being a bitch is highly overrated, grudges are ( Read more... )

lately, i just feel worthless.
why am i here? seriously.

it makes me want to cry.

As I get older, I find that life really is worth living. I used to be that dumb adolescent girl who thought nothing in her life was exciting, and that everything would be better somewhere else. Now I realize that simply being alive is something to be thankful for. Part of me think it's a little too late, but the other part prays to god it's not ( Read more... )

"Learning what really counts is an important lesson that may be learned the hard way."

ain't that the truth.
i'm still alive.
i still have the greatest friends.
i still have the love of my life.

that's all that matters,
right?

Steve & his family have done so much for me with out realizing it ( Read more... )

Wanna know how I spent my Halloween ( Read more... )

- I miss you & that's bad.
- Thanks for being my best friend.
- I'd like to ask you what being crazy feels like.
- I love you more than anything, but sometimes I wonder.
- I thought we were friends?
- You make me feel stupid.
- You confuse me.
- Get over yourself.
- Stop corrupting my friends!