i don't think anyone reads this anymore.
but. i'm happy.

i'm digging a hole i'm digging a hole i'm digging a hole.

i'm distracted by happiness. maybe maybe maybe.

i could be falling in love.

i almost died. twice in the same month. i fainted and slit my throat open on a glass that i broke with my neck. there are fifteen stiches in my throat. something has got to change.

i just keep on fucking up.

i cannot believe it's january. time has been flying by. how long has it been since lijah & i broke up? i couldn't even tell you. it seems like eternity. life is continuing. i dyed my hair black again. i finallly got my car inspected. i'm failing english. i'm almost done with highschool. i care about nothing. i don't give a shit. each day feels like ( Read more... )

i am now eighteen. last night with d. was amazing. i am trying to wake up. the only way i can cope is to have lots of fun with cute boys & jena.

i just recieved my first paycheck from the basil bandwagon.
only four periods of school a day is saving my life.
things are good.

sometimes i hate everybody.

well then.

all i want to do is feed my head.