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This changes nothing, but...

...I am Ready.

Finally.

After almost exactly 3 years single, I'm Ready.

current mood: melancholy

...shall be entitled - simply - "Crying in Parking Lots."

Upon parking, the social-media-of-choice in my palm greeted me with a picture - taken by my best friend on Earth - of my bestie's dad looking down at my bestie's baby with such pure love and utter delight that tears instantly filled my eyes ( Read more... )

I'm not strong enough for this.

I thought I was, but I'm not.

It's not just the cold - with the appropriate number of layers, I could handle just the cold ( Read more... )

Just took the roommate's doggo for a walk...o, and revelled in the new-budded Christmas lights whilst verbally chastising said doggo for various stop-for-9-hours-to-sniff-pee offenses ( Read more... )

Five years.

Five years ago TODAY.

So much growth. So much repetition. So much naivete.

I'll never change.

And I am constantly changing.

My life's current quandries:

Will I, at some future point, need to move back to Indiana? (Mum's aging; my bestie made a brand new person ( Read more... )

...today I hacked off my hair ( Read more... )

...of today have brought me to a few important conclusions ( Read more... )

...I worry that he hasn't changed, the more I realize...I don't need to change for HIM. If he hasn't changed enough - if he still expects me to be his motive force, still sleeps away the years, still complains without action, still needs someone to "fix," well then...I'll move on ( Read more... )

...I want to remember these lines ( Read more... )