mmmm. feels good.
life is good.

i can find peace at night for myself between midnight and 2am. the time where i get things done and relax. journal, read, pray, music, work on the bikes my dad and i are building. something so honost about it all. something serene about going going going all day to come home and be by myself, work on myself. i've never found peace in this house ( Read more... )

the pain of silence, rejection, and consequences caught up with me today. fucking harsh. the pain of grieving. the confusion. man, it was all there. not one of my better days, for sure. didn't have to use over it and thats something to be grateful for. heard a really good lead meeting tonite, could relate to it so much. so very similar to my own ( Read more... )

long busy days. meetings everyday, sometimes twice a day. working parttime. calling sponser. step work. support group, so many friends. my cool girl, Morgan. reading my prayer book, the BB, and meditations daily and most importantly pray, pray, praying. the sickness ends. the blessings come, the nightmaires and cravings cease. the peace i get from ( Read more... )

it never gets better, does it?

so much change going on. feels weird. because its right. and healthy. havent done right and healthy in a long time. tonya and christin help so much. gotta call liz. damnit. gotta do that. workin m-f almost full time. so much more stuff to do, but like, its so much easier than it was. and i dont feel hopeless. so much stuff is changing. i am ( Read more... )

sober.
workin at the coffee house.
got my apartment today.

feeling so fucking good.

hell yeah.
hell fuckin yeah.

thank you, God.

gotta call tonya.
gotta call liz.

:)

Grant Hospital claims that i have "acute bronchitis". yeah. what a shock, right?! i feel like shit. like whoa. i have earaches in both my ears, spitting up green shit...ugggggggghhhhhhhhhhh gross.
and like, i was supposed to start my job tonite. hah. good timing, eh? NOT. god. what the fuck. why does this shit happen to me?

what a frickin day. already. its motherfuckin 10:49 in the morning. i am so serious. i went to my 2nd interview and chic is all like.."oh, he was trying to call you this morning but didnt get ahold of you and um, well, hes got another appointment at 10am and yeahhh, hes gonna have to rescehduale you". so, im all smiles, like, "hey, thats (fucking) ( Read more... )

goin to a meeting this morning. its all sunny sunny sunny out! :) makes me smile. ummm...need coffee, real bad, i'm having a pretty good morning though so far. feelin' pretty good ( Read more... )