leaving tomorrow, i can't wait.
i got my job today, excited about that, but..i can't smoke at all on my shifts. goin' through it for sure...
i'm so tired tonite. gonna get to bed soon...

what a beautiful day!...i'm in such a good mood today and I can't fuckin wait till this weekend!.....

So many things happening. or not happening. Either way, things seem to have balanced out. I wouldn't say stable, but certainly on it's way. Trying to stay positive is so incredibly trying most days. Worried about certain people and myself...scared ( Read more... )

worked today 11-4pm. it always seems like such a long day b/c i work by myself and sometimes it's just extremely slow. i get so bored. came home, ate dinner, then to ton's for stepwork. we got like 3/4 of the way through it but couldnt finish it, b/c, ya know, she has a life. a husband, a child, phonecalls. its like we just couldnt get through it b ( Read more... )

aa drama bullshit lying sick fucking people everywhere. it's all getting to me tonite. overwhelming shit that i want no part of. count me out of all of it. im straight. i've got bigger things to worry about. like, for instance, myself.

feeling totally lost tonite, a little obsessive, a little hurt, a little angry and a bit of guilt and resentment. i don't know what to do, so i suppose i'll just do nothing. let everything fall where it may. it's not my responsibility and i'm powerless over it. keep taking deep breaths and pray over it, that's what Julie says. I have about 4 1/2 ( Read more... )

went to Rick and Barb's Halloween party tonite, got all dressed up as a kitty, lots of fun, but i am soooooo frickin' tired. i've got this empty feeling tonite too that i'm goin through, but i'm ok. i'm just exhausted and some sleep would do me good. tommorow should be a better day........i certainly hope so anyway. ~night.

how completely amazing the last almost 4 months have been. so much has happened. so much growth, friendships, sobriety. it's all such a blessing..... i'm so grateful for it all. such change, in so many areas of my life. amazing. gonna have 4 months sober on Nov. 7th. i guess miracles do happen.....

it's insane how things always seem to come when you're not expecting them. I've been thinking, dreaming (more nightmaires then anything else) about him and then i get this random email, which was really fuckin cool because it eased my mind. it lets me know he's still there. it makes me miss him tonite more then ever ( Read more... )

i'm going into my long-term inpatient program the 31st of this month. excited. change of scenery, moving forword. it's a good thing i'm so adaptable or i think i'd probably freak out. overall, pretty confident about the whole thing. feelin' good ( Read more... )