Wouldn't it be nice if we were older?
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long

i know i haven't written for a long time. i will, sometimes, i hope. i am very busy.

Sugar, I call my baby my sugar ( Read more... )

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i can't help but notice that i'm going to university tomorrow.

oh christ.

nice sequence on the x list just now - 'motorcycle emptiness', 'idioteque', some random song rendered more interesting by being requested by 'patrick in lewisham', i.e. patrick haviland, and then 'suedehead'! very nice. i've been listening to music more recently, because i've got more free time (not for much longer, sigh). yesterday i listened ( Read more... )

i miss my old friends. surprisingly enough, as things stand at present, it's generally them who've lost touch with me. amy hasn't replied to my letter, which i think i wrote in july. did i offend her, or come across badly? argh. now that i come to think of it, this shows a rapid loss of enthusiasm, given that in her initial letter she ( Read more... )

clio's party was pretty fun at the time, but in retrospect, i would do things differently if i had my chance again, i.e. not saturate my body with alcohol. three glasses of champagne, a mojito, a rapidly consumed smirnoff ice, half an apple martini and an unidentified pink cocktail is too much, i now recognise. still, it could have been a lot ( Read more... )

my sleeping habits are going all wrong. the last few nights, i haven't been able to sleep until 1.30 or 2 in the morning, and when i do sleep, i have bad dreams populated by various elements of the jags-college contigent. (clearly, my subconscious hasn't quite recovered yet from year 13.) i get up at 8, before the painter arrives, but then after ( Read more... )

i read this book today that really pissed me off. the subject matter was very interesting - one of the chapter titles was 'breasts, sodomy and the lash', nice - but the way it was written drove me mad, in that it was total bollocks and used the word 'alterity' far too often. i really hope i don't have to read many more books like that. tomorrow ( Read more... )

so, it finally happened: ed went to birmingham today. it felt sadder than i had expected, standing there on the pavement, kissing and waving each other goodbye. i felt a bit like crying, but i didn't want to cry and make a big deal out of it in front of his family, so i tried not to, and that made me want to even more, and - you know. ( ( Read more... )