There is going to be changes here. I guess things are shifting and they really need to fall into place this time. People say they only write in their journals when they are either extremely happy or the opposite end of the spectrum. I guess it was a breakdown. I guess that is what it means when people say that the world was crashing down around ( Read more... )

Merry Christmas. A real update will come about later.

There have been times when I told myself that it was okay to shut down just so I was able to make it through whatever was happening at the time. If I could just turn that part off of me, everything seemed slightly easier. I just didnt think it would blow up this badly in my face. I thought every face that walked by my door last night was going to ( Read more... )

It is that point in time where every thing slows. The demos are piling up but I do not have the will to listen to them. I have been working on lyrics as often as I can. New inspiration has helped with that. Since Amir and I have gotten together, it is better when I come home at night. Its not empty. Even though there is more I love about him than ( Read more... )

It has been two weeks since we were told that we are free from whatever realm of hell that we were just in. I said good bye to Ryan and got on a flight. Forgive me for not saying goodbye to some of you. My ediqutte is usually horrible. The house was quiet when I got there. No movement had gone through it in about 2 months. This little endeavour and ( Read more... )

There are some mornings where I just dont want to get up. The day ahead seems long and tedious but there no other way around it. But then there are days when I have seen too many cycles of days and nights. Once you go three days without sleep, it is easy to make it four, five, or six dance. Phone calls become irrelevant and it is harder to regain ( Read more... )

I see that the rules say that I cant post in the Welcome Wagon until I get approved to do so, so tonight, I'll just post here. Im Jay Gordon, singer for Orgy and owner of D1 Records. Right now I am very overworked and just trying to keep sane. It isnt going to work but it is worth a try. Right now I can barely type a word without having to use the ( Read more... )