i'm getting back in touch with who i am. i'm feeling so creative lately and it's the best feeling. the sun is shining and i'm feeling inspired. i re-did my room a little and it looks fantastic. i've made a purse and i'm going to start to make more and start selling them. it just feels great. i even went on my first bike ride of the season the other ( Read more... )

listening to funeral by arcade fire brings back all kinds of feelings from when i lived in toronto. i actually miss that time... well some of it. that seems so long ago... it fucking blows my mind how long ago it really is. i miss the friendships i had at that time. they were the good part. i liked the freedom and the independence. it feels like ( Read more... )

this town brings me down ( Read more... )

i'm moving to tuscany. i'm going to live in the country side and have a vineyard. i'm going to sip wine and listen to billie holiday. at night i'll sit out on my deck and look at the stars. i wont be here, at a dead end job, suffering from extreme food poisoning.

nope.

i'll be living life to the fullest.

three years ago this weekend elliott smith commited suicide. it still saddens me a lot. he was so talented, so amazing. listening to his music gives me chills but calms me as well. his songs hold a lot of memories for me. he is missed.

<3 elliott smith.

just get over it. move on, life is too short to care what others think of you.

i'm officially done sunrise, thank god. if i had to be there one more day and feel as uncomfortable as i do lately, i'd go insane. some people made it really hard for me to work there lately. i'll miss some people, but others i wont.

last night sucked. i really wish i could have seen the show last night, but instead i was in a bath tub full of cold water, bawling my eyes out at how sore my cut up knee was feeling. it sucked having to hear people laughing and clapping while i was screaming due to pain. i would have went down if my knee wasn't messed up, i don't let shit stop me ( Read more... )

it makes me sad to think there's a dance party on the weekend and i can't go. well i can, but i probably wouldn't have very much fun. i'm going to miss those and going to shows. well i may go to some, but i'm not sure how comfortable i'll feel.

blah, it just kind of sucks.

i went to aarons funeral today. it was extremely sad. to think he lost his life at the age of 18 is truly heart breaking. he died in a car accident - (i just want to say) please drive carefully and don't drive too fast, you may think it's fun but you may end up without your life. i've been feeling pretty sad all day ( Read more... )

i just found out that someone i know was killed in a car accident last night. it's times like these that certain problems in my life seem so fucking small.