i'm tired of putting on a smile and acting like i'm fine. i'm not fine. i'm tired of not crying and holding it all in. my life is miserable and i have a right to cry about it. i'm tired of not talking about my feelings to anyone ( Read more... )

i really hate my life sometimes.

how is my mom gone? how? why? it's not fair ( Read more... )

i'm getting the weirdest emails from people i never talked to in my life, saying they're sorry. but have i gotten one from one my best friends from last year? nope! pretty sad actually and i know all this is traveling through them too. chris's ex-girlfriend who he hasn't talked to in 3 years messaged him, saying how she's sorry for my lose. like ( Read more... )

i just want to know why i can't catch a break in life. i just want to know why this is all happening to me. why does this have to happen to anyone. i never want to complain about the smallest petty problems ever again because nothing is worth complaining over after going through this. people really take their life for granted sometimes ( Read more... )

my mom is close to passing away any day now. i feel numb and pissed off.

people have disappointed me. i thought some certain people would be there for me - but they're not. i guess that's life.

i haven't cried this hard, ever. laying in bed, listening to th song that's going to be played at your mom's funeral and looking at pictures of me and my mom. i can't believe that she doesn't have much time to live. it hurts so bad ( Read more... )

i never use this thing anymore, but i needed a place to vent ( Read more... )

i hate waking up for a really good dream and realizing it's not real.

motherfucking constantines. that's all i have to say about that. fucking greatest band alive.

okay going to bed, start my new job tomorrow.

p.s i have a major crush on steve.