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[_justeverything]

Lots of entries planned out in my mind. Descriptions of events, of thoughts. No energy to type them out.

It all just boils down to this anyway -

I'm sick of this. I want out.

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[reaperville]

:-( I'm sorry princess, I wish there was something clever I could say to make it better. Just try and get through the exams and think of it as a fresh start - you can take some time out, find something to do in France for a bit, get a job while you sort your head out - just hang in there a bit longer.

And try talking to your psych lady, bottling things up won't help - trust me!

And listening to cheery old Damien Rice probably isn't helping either! :-p

*hugs*

[_justeverything]

I went to therapy for the first time in...I'm not sure, quite a while...couple of months maybe? On Friday. It was horribly scary. We nearly didn't go (he came with me). I didn't want to. We missed the first train because he was playing basketball, and then I managed to distract him long enough that we missed the second train too. I thought I was safe, until his mum came home and he asked her to take us. So I went, even if I was half an hour late. I didn't like it. But actually, we did touch upon a couple of things that I think of as 'important'. We talked a little about how suddenly my mood can change - she'd noticed it herself. And we talked about how I feel like nothing's real at the moment, like I'm distant from it all and can't connect with it and I'm just wandering through life like a zombie. And she didn't try and simplify it or wave it off like she usually does. And, for the first time ever, she acknowledged that I have issues with food

[reaperville]

Hmmm. It's not that you can't talk, it's that you don't want to. But you'll talk to me (in writing) and what you says makes sense and would help your pscyh....and I'm just typing as I'm thinking, if that explains the weird tone!!

So what's different between writing it in LJ, and saying it out loud to her? Be harsh with yourself. What is different? You don't need to fix it or explain it, just say what kiind of stuff is different.

You're clever and funny and obviously popular and we're not having the cute argument again :-p