My life always seems to fall apart at the mere moment that for one second I could possibly be happy and I actually half expected you to be different. But I was miserably wrong.

I know what I did hurt you. I know I said hurtful things. I thought you were strong enough to love me through.

<3
Katie

I saw your Mom today. Everything fell apart when you left. We fell apart. She hugged me. It was the first time someone touched me since you left ( Read more... )

This week has pretty much sucked and its only Wednesday. I have Saturday school on Saturday, that is going to suck. I guess when you have to spend 2 weeks at the hospital the school expects you to make it up. I've been making it up for 3 weeks. My mother wasn’t happy when I referred to my absence as being in a crazy ward, instead of taking time to ( Read more... )

I'm missing the way things used to be. A best friend dying of cancer was still a friend. The worst time in my life was the time that actually made sense, it was the last time I felt safe. Things are just confusing now and I worry. I worry alot ( Read more... )

Well I got another journal. I couldn’t read the last one. It was hopeful. Hope ended on 9/25/2004. William Anthony Griffin lost his life to cancer.

What a stupid word. Lost. He didn’t lose it. He didn’t leave it at the store like a 5 year old. Or maybe he did. He let go.

love,
katie <3