For the first time in a long time, I feel alright. I finally have found the people that I want to know for the rest of my life, it took a lot of time, and friendships that were not right were broken thankfully, but the kids that I am around now are great. There is nothing more that I can ask for than to spend my birthday with all of my friends at ( Read more... )

I need to get out of this bubble, I feel like everything I want to do gets mangled and twisted, therefore it always comes out bad. As it comes closer to friday, it feels weird to keep drinking, smoking, or doing anything else, just because, its just stupid. I also feel like a creep because almost all of my friends are younger than me, and I know it ( Read more... )

Everything I ever thought was real, was fake. I'm giving up and giving in, i'm not playing this way anymore. Take it or leave it, i'll be brand new.

I am changing myself from what I used to be and what I have become. Frankly, I am sick of everything and sick of watching people become things that they hate and ruin their own lives, I refuse to ( Read more... )

 I'm an addict, to caffine, ciggaretes, and speeding. But I love christian music, and for some reason it makes me enjoy the world. Red bull is probably going to kill me, I have a built up tolerance against it, I should have quit smoking before I even started, but i'm going to, but I just don't have the motivation, and besides, "underground smoker" ( Read more... )

Today I have finally accepted everything, two years of holding a grudge is a long time, but I guess you would too. January in 10th grade my father "found" another women, and in mid feburary left us to go live with my friends dad, (her parents were getting a divorce at the time so he stayed in an apartment). I watched my mother stop eating, she went ( Read more... )

I lack the motivation, and I can't seem to put one foot in front of the other. I hate pretending that I am happy, I mean I am, but i'm not. I wish life was simple and I wish I would not use the word I. I'm the happiest when I see my kids every week, not my legit kids, but the ones I volunteer with. I can sit there and not even care about my phone ( Read more... )

So many fish in the sea,
I wanted you,
and you wanted me.

Ok so ( Read more... )

Summer is finally here, I have been counting down the days.

Hope you have a good one!

See most of you in school next year.

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So 6 more days of school and finally our freshman year is ending. I can tell that this summer is going to be a good one. Basically my summer is almost full:

June 22. Last Day of School
June 24. Lakehouse with the girls
June 26. Swicthfoot and Howie Day with Becky                                                July 2. Lake for the week with Becky ( Read more... )