I don't even know why I'm waiting anymore. It's like I have this fucked up routine with how all my relationships end and how long it takes me to realize that nothings ever gonna happen or be the same as it was. I'm cursed. :'(

There's only one thing i want for my birthday...

But it'll never happen.

you've got your dumb friends
i know what they say
they say that i'm difficult
but so are they
but they don't know me
do they even know you
all the things you hide from meall the shit that you do ( Read more... )

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i hate this feeling. it's like i was at the beginning of the year. i don't know what i want. i wish i did. if i knew what i wanted i wouldnt have to wait for two guys at the same time. eh im stupid. nic/shawn. bleh. i think i want shawn and im just mad that nic is moving on. its not really nic who i want. i just want a good relationship. i need to ( Read more... )

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