"My mind keeps driftin', cuz i haven't had a spliffe in
a long time i'm doing fine i feel terrific"
-SDG

umm....

I have this theory, because i'm atheist, that life is a series of random events without meaning. In the movie I -heart- Huckabees, there are 2 conflicting theories, one that everything is connected so everything is meaningful and good and bla bla cuz life is beautiful and one that nothing is connected and chaos, sadness, and destruction reign. I ( Read more... )

I just realized that i may never see some of you again if i am grounded all summer and have to go to benet. That means that tomorrow will be a day for goodbyes. It's not likely, but it's a hell of a lot more likely than it was before. oh man. i don't know what to say ( Read more... )

So dang, jo. I'm in alot of trouble. I got busted for everything that i ever did pretty much. Everything in my whole life has fallen apart in this last month, piece by piece. Right now I'm at rock bottom and i am only upset about a few things, generally dissapointed, and ready to try again. The bottom is a good place to start if you want to go up i ( Read more... )

It's the end of the year, and it's time to take a look back...

I seriously didn't do one thing right, since school started. fuck.

I know, for a fact, that i have said this to more than 3 people and they have all said it doesn't happen to them. So the question i have for you is ( Read more... )

End of the year entry...

The thing about most people is they will leave your life. That is basically true, and everyone knows that in some sense, whether consciously or in the back of their mind. Because most people will generally have something drive them apart from another person, i think that their trust for that person is almost completely ( Read more... )

I am writing a book. I don't have a title, and i haven't chosen a main conflict yet, but i have so much that i want to say. If you know me, have touched my life in any significant (and possibly insignificant) way then you are probably in it. If you changed my life, it's probably about you. I'm not promising i'll finish it, i'm not promising anyone ( Read more... )

What do i do? I feel like my role for until school starts next year is to just keep watching everyone float out of my life. I'm sick of thinking that i can't keep people as close as i want to. Why do you seem so eager to leave? How can it be that easy?

What the hell? I have been acting so strangely lately. I don't feel like myself, except in some very certain circumstances. I feel so out of my element, but at the same time so trapped in routine that my mind has gone numb and i respond without thinking. I've been annoying and retarded, and reminded myself of my dad. I just don't know what's going ( Read more... )