my life is pretty awesome as of late.

i've been thinking of trying to get my job back with toni&guy but that decision is going to take some serious thought. i went up to the old mall salon i used to work at so my friend could color my hair, and it was weird how much i didn't connect with any of my old friends anymore. it was sad, but, honestly, it ( Read more... )

this is all bullshit. everything is bullshit. i went to a stupid party that a friend of sean's was having at his stupid shitty house when it finally hit me how horrible i am. i sat on this ratty asshole couch looking at everyone stand around like vapid sacks of shit pretending to be interested in each others joke lives and i just wanted a fucking ( Read more... )

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i look in the mirror and i see this person i don't even know anymore. a person i don't even want to know. i don't even know how she got here or how long she's been standing here. i do know that i want her to leave.

everytime i leave, i come back into the bathroom with my fingers crossed hoping that i'm standing there in her place when i get back

 so i had my interview this morning at 9am after having slept for only an hour the night before. i fell asleep around 6:30am and woke up around 7:45am to get up. fart bomb.

if i don't get this job i'm going to kill myself.

ALSO I HAVE A FUNNY STORY TO TELL YOU GUYS:

me and sean were having sex the other night like we do pretty much everynight. i was ( Read more... )

ok so things are FINALLY looking up.

i have an intervirw at a new salon this thursday. i've spent the past 2 months laying in bed all day, crying over my lost job and feeling miserable about my life but i'm done with that.

yesterday i woke up at 6pm after having slept all day and sean said to me, "babe, you have to get a job. i don't want to be a ( Read more... )