my lif e it seems has taken a turn
why in the name of god would i ever want to return
peel off our skin
were gonna burn what we were to the ground
fuck in the fire and we'll spread all the ashes around
i wanna kill away the rest of whats left and i do. 
yes i do.
she turns me on. she makes it real.
nothing can stop me now
and there is nothng to fear.
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i turn 18 tomorrow.
get into it.

im bored. so i figured id do a quick update ( Read more... )

ATTENTION CASSANDRA LYNN FOWLER:

i saw your grandfather outside the other day. and it made me think of you and how much i miss you. and i realized its been forever since i talked to you. and i dont like that at all.

little sis misses big sis a lot.

:(

having the potental to have something special. something so great that nothing else mattered. but knowing it'll never happen, because nothing changes and it never works out. is the one thing that can ruin a person.

i dont want to be alone anymore.

i saw an old good friend today. havn't seen him in a while. we went to eat and caught up with eachother. he's always been like my big brother, and looked out for me. so when he asked me if i was happy. i told him i was. and he replied with something so truthful it almost scared me. and i wanted to cry. he looked right at me and goes "your lieing. ( Read more... )

it just hit me that im gonna be 18 in exactly 6 months. its so wierd.

yea. you know i did it.
its over. and i feel fine.
nothing you can say is gonna change my mind.
waited. and i wait at the longest night.
nothing like the taste of sweet decline.

i went down and i fell. i fell so fast.
dropping like a grain in an hour glass.
never say forever cause nothing lasts.
dancing with the bones of my burried past.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRYSTAL! I LOVE YOU!!!

the little one miss the bigger one. <3

i miss you..