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[_letsgotobed_]

why is it so impossible to live somewhere? i'm tired of feeling so fucking uprooted all of the time. i love traveling but i don't love feeling like i have no home and nowhere to go back to, in fact it's pretty awful. i was going to try to stay with my dad for a while and take some classes at the community college there, so i could just like

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[elgee_isaac]

It sounds like you have some really good things going on Natassia. Life is a big mixed bag (as if you hadn't figured that out yourself). I just try to roll with it all. I too am on an upswing so I celebrate you for giving up smoking (me too) and slowing down on the alcohol and taking care of yourself. I started bikram yoga which is torturous but the benefits are outweighing the horrible 105 degree room.

Hang in there chica, keep writing. Keep your chin up!

[_letsgotobed_]

yeah it sure is.... hell yeah giving up smoking!. i'd like to try bikram yoga, but maybe just regular yoga first, glad things are going well for you.

[treasurecunt]

i'm sorry you're feeling lonely, my dear. i am lonely in the opposite way. i love portland so much, but sometimes it is a very lonesome, frustrating place and it makes me feel stuck. know that i will go adventures and hang out with you without drinking or getting high any old day, and i can't wait to see you when you're here (this week!?)!

<3

[_letsgotobed_]

i can see that about portland definitely, and loneliness sucks no matter what brand. i'll be back on december 1st!

[zeraphimpoetry]

I was thinking about what you wrote and also some other things that were on my mind. check out my newest post if you would like to read.

[zeraphimpoetry]

Umph, going to post it on fey_seraph

[sometingcryptic]

Not everybody looks for a soul.
It's not that they know it's not there,
it's that life to them is no gift.
You seem to have a sense of impending doom which
is natural, since we know how old and miserable and dead we're gonna get.
But at least you find it worth it enough to be searching for something
otherwise you're dead in your shoes.

I don't want to proselytize, because life is, undeniably, a meaningless terror - I just get my rocks off on sincerity.
And commenting on other people's.
Then there's "Nobody's Business" by Lou Reed.

[_letsgotobed_]

hahahaha!.
doom is the name of the game. at this rate we'll be lucky if we even get to be old and miserable simultaneously. i don't know if luck really equates in this situation, but i guess you know what i mean.
and no proselytization percieved, i enjoy your point of view.