today is creeping by like molasses. left new york in one piece and with a new boyfriend and a badass lady. i don't even mean for these things to happen. i can't stay single for more than like two months for some reason. still in love with adam. in new hampshire, catching a ride up to portland with some friends today. got a little more aim. ( Read more... )

failing. in new york city. the end.

left my boyfriend, lost my rat, started drinking, went to jail, lost my traveling friends, got another, ditched that one, made him cry, no friends, running from nothing. manic manic manic. now i'm alone in asheville, n.c. for some reason that i can't figure out and it's about to thunderstorm. lost my mind. clutching to this class on herbal ( Read more... )

life is pretty rockin right now. i made it from maine to los angeles a week or two ago, and rode my bike from la to san diego, which was really fun. so cal "culture" is such a cheesy joke, and i'm REALLLLLLLLLLY tired of "hippies" but there are also some really cool things like swimming in the ocean in january and where the land hasn't been ( Read more... )

just this shitty memory from last summer that keeps popping into my head ( Read more... )

i'm having a shitty day. i can't find the charger for my camera or my favorite cds. i feel like i might be getting a uti. i haven't gotten out of my pajamas all day. i don't want to go to ireland and hang out with a bunch of people i don't know. i'm tired of "family." my dad said that there is almost no chance of me getting a job in albany ( Read more... )

sometimes even new photographs look like archaic relics to me.

i am on a permanent mission to destroy myself. cigarettes and alcohol are out of the picture but now i am ingesting disgusting amounts of sugar. one step at a time i guess, but really i'm kind of grossing myself out.

why is it so impossible to live somewhere? i'm tired of feeling so fucking uprooted all of the time. i love traveling but i don't love feeling like i have no home and nowhere to go back to, in fact it's pretty awful. i was going to try to stay with my dad for a while and take some classes at the community college there, so i could just like ( Read more... )

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