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I've decided I need to start taking some of my own advice. Things have been chaotic lately. Sometimes I feel a little lost. But when it all comes down to it...I feel better than I have in a long time. It's nice. I just sort of feel ok being me...doing nothing. I'm not seeking any fulfillment externally. I don't know. I just feel sort of like...I'm ( Read more... ) -
mm...hmmph
Since losing my job I've had a lot of time to just relax and let myself fall out of old habits. Since moving into a new home, new and quite familiar - I've pretty much lost everything of my old routines. I didn't have to do much really...but I've just found myself in an environment that provides me with an opportunity to reform my daily habits more ( Read more... ) -
whoa...it's the end of summer
I was thinking that i wouldn't really be writing much in here anymore. I thought...I'd either quite the whole blogging thing or switch to blogger or, blogspot, or whatever the damn thing is. But...I'm sort of attached to this little journal so I think I'll keep adding to it now and then ( Read more... ) -
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It's been a while since i've had time to post here. Since the dissolution of the Fortress I've only had a few minutes with the interwebs at a time. I haven't had internet in my home since I moved to Eugene but, between school and friends I was still always on. Over the last few months I've made a more conscious effort to reduce my internet exposure ( Read more... ) -
time warp
These last couple weeks have gone by so quickly. Helping the fortress kids pack and move out...trying to find a new place. I feel like I've fallen behind myself...it's not that so much has happened but so much has been on my mind ( Read more... ) -
jesus
I feel sort of helpless. I've almost finished my antibiotics - so I won't have chlamydia anymore. But...I don't know where I got it. None of my previous sex partners have it. I have it and my most recent partner has it. This infection seems to have come from thin air. It wasn't so bad when I thought i knew how it had all happened but now that I don ( Read more... ) -
so far
so far...that new attitude has been difficult to maintain. I've already made some gains in the direction of those general goals: my apartment is almost completely clean and I finally picked up an alternator for my van yesterday ( Read more... ) -
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I haven't written here in a long time
Deserting my online journal should have clearly read to me as a warning sign about losing track of myself. Well, not really. But I haven't been doing any of the things I used to do. For a while now I've sort of been slipping away into this that and the other social engagement ( Read more... ) -
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The ride down to LA was ridiculous. The time I spent there flew by. The trip back was awesome. It was a pretty refreshing week. I needed the break from the monotony that has been my life lately ( Read more... )