I was so happy to be here with her. Cordelia knew everything about me, knew what my family was like and she was still by my side, I have to say that I am quite the lucky guy. I think Willow wouldn't agree, hell none of them understand why I love Cordelia so much. I don't think they will ever understand how wonderful she is, and why I refuse to ( Read more... )

All morning, all I thought about was Xander. No thoughts of Angelus and my nightmare. Xander came through for me. It took me by suprise. I wanted him so bad last night. We both came so close, to actually having sex. I just wasn't ready last night. I love him. I know that for sure. I smile myself, looking at the clock. It's almost 12. I'm ( Read more... )

Location - Cordelia Chase's room. Time - last night.This whole night was beyond amazing. I couldn't believe that this all was happening. Cordelia and I had never gone past kissing and caressing, you know the heavy making out that can be done in a broom closet here and there. Tonight she let me do things that I had only dreamed of. I could tell ( Read more... )

After Xander dropped me off, I said my goodnights to mom and dad and headed straight to my bedroom. I knew I was safe here. I took a shower and put on my silk red mid-thigh nightgown. I laid down in bed and tried my hardest to sleep.

--dream

Angelus snuck up behind me at The Bronze flirting with me and whispering in my ear. He made me shiver ( Read more... )

He was kissing along my bra line and it actually felt good. His kiss, his touch was calming. "Oh Oz" I moan out as his hands caress my body. I just wanted this moment to last to make the bad melt away, as it already was ( Read more... )

I turn back towards Willow on hearing her speak. I want to speak, but can't find my voice so walk back across to the bed and hug her letting her know that I want to stay with her. I know that she'll never be the same after what Angelus did to her, but she's still Willow ( Read more... )

I laid in Oz's arms, he wanted me to rest, but I couldn't seem to get any. Oz finally took the lead and called Jenny asking for some help from her. She didn't know what else to do, but give me more of the sleeping pills that she slipped me the night before so she brought a small handfull over telling Oz just how many to give me and how often ( Read more... )

I woke up next to my Spike that night. The stars where singing to me again. Oh how I loved to hear the sounds of their singing ( Read more... )

I lay there in Oz's arms cuddling close to him holding this kiss as long as I could. I needed to feel something good. I needed to feel that he wanted me. I hated the way I had become so clingy, so needy, this wasn't me at all. I was the quiet book nerd who could hack into fort knox given the right amount of time. Now I was a shell of my ( Read more... )

I sighed as I watched Willow and Oz exit the library. I wondered would we ever get the Willow that we loved back? I don't know if that is a possibility anymore. I do know that one thing is for certain, we had to make her feel as cared for as possible. I just wished that was all I had to be concerned about now ( Read more... )