Feeling sad and lonely. I feel like i am losing my best friend and I can't take it. I hate that you never talk to me about these things. I hope you don't htink you have to stay with my just because of other people. I don't want to lose you but i hate crying every night not knowing if you really care about me any more... I feel more alone than ever ( Read more... )

Why can't i just have some real friends? I never have anyone to talk to. Never have anyone to call for no reason. Never have anyone to hang out with or just show up whenever. What happened? I hate moultonborough. I feel like i never really  had any friends becuase if i did when i was home from school they still would have wanted to see me or i ( Read more... )

crying inside....

Yea, i havent written since like November. But im feeling lost and alone and i feel like i need to write it all out instead of feeling like a complete loser because the only one i have to talk to about anything remotely personal is my boyfriend and thank god i have him ( Read more... )

Three's a crowd... I've decided...   i just want a best friend. or a friend who cares. who doesnt push me to the side ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I posted last.. I guess nothing new has happened. All i know is that i feel like i have less and less friends every year for no reason at all. At first it was cuz i went away to boarding school, to get a better education and broaden my horizons, and i lost friends for doing something for ME for once. Then i lost friends to ( Read more... )

Maybe he'll surprise me and do something nice for me. maybe to make up for it.

I hate this feeling. That no one cares. My bday was alright i guess. But I did end up crying myself to sleep. Always a great way to end the day.
The beginning was good, we went on a whale watch. Whale watching we didn't see many whales, kind of a dissapointment. Drove home, ate dinner. Got a small organizer and a gift certificate to walmart. ate ( Read more... )

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Sometimes I wish I was more appreciated? i guess thats the word. i dunno. theres just something missing that I want... thats all